life as we know it (can i go home now?)

seriosly what percent of the people in this world are accually happy right now? not me. i mean, how many hours of my time do i spend in this library? it is total shit! the life i lead is very possibly a sham! ive been thinking lately that i might not be goth. just a passing thought but does it mean something? i love being goth, but could i be wrong about the very self i am? totally possible. help me! some one tell me if i am the me i thought i was!